at the end

at the end of
you and I,
now that it's over
and I realize it in my heart;
tell me you love me
one more time
and I'll look at you
and shake my head
and ask you to please
not talk to me anymore.
all these years gone by
and I've learned nothing

except that it always
always
hurts to love.

1 January 1999
(found in journal)