if I'd'a been (incomplete, forever)

if I'd'a been someone else
and not this tightly controlled
manic-depressive engine - low on oil and burnin'
rubber; a soul crazed for quiet repose, and direct,
somnambulent eye contact...
if I'd'a been, but -

no:
me I am;
child of God,
father to three,
the least and the most, a simple man, here with my father
in Gaia,
Fred to his friends, and my mother Elaine, woman of strength
and morality - Summerside Patriarch and Matriarch.

if I'd'a been - but then
good wouldn't be
so very, very good, and bad
so terribly
scarily present... with Hell to show us,
so we might learn
to discern.

in Love
I look at it All, all this Art,
and rejoin the Painter, this harbinger of
Paradise;
treat myself
ever so kindly, ever so gently.

if I'd'a been... but,
I'd not have me
to argue with late into the night -
and I wouldn't have God to say goodnight and good morning to.
I'd have never loved and hated so strongly as I do.....

(unfinished)

26 June 2007

Hi everyone - good summer for you all? I went away, learned a thing or two, and now I'm back to bug you all...

Donnie, you still around?

How's she goin', LMSQK?

And all the rest of you - I've missed you...

Perry Deepdale